who_am_i

Just a teenager
2021-04-23 18:29:51 (UTC)

isn't this site depressing?

isn't this site depressing?Or is it just me being already depressed?When I look through my own entries all I can see is how helpless I am.I'm here because I am going through the shittiest time of my life and am just very lonely.But,why are you here though?What keeps you writing your life out,publicly,everyday?Do you hope that someone will reach out to you so that you'll finally find some company?Or do you just feel better after writing? Honestly I'm tired of writing about my own bullshit cause it's not getting better anytime soon.

But why are you,dear reader of this entry, reading right now?This is a site that barely anyone knows and it makes me feel suffocated.If you've been writing here for a long time,what kept you doing so?What was the reason?I'm not talking about the writers that just share what happens in their day and don't care much about the site,or who is reading for that matter.

I'm talking about people like me,who share their suffering and the worst periods of their life.Don't you feel like you're screaming into a void?

For me it does nothing other than worsening the situation.I pity myself.The more I write about how shity things are the more I get sucked into this hole.

I only read others diaries cause I try to figure out why they're here.Are they going through a hard time?Are they just happy with their lives and sharing small daily problems?

What kind of a life story do they have that brought them here,to this site?

I may never know.But one thing I know of is that I don't wanna keep writing.I actually had some stuff to tell,but you see,I'm not talking to anyone.This is probably gonna be my last entry and I don't know why,I just feel weird about this whole experience.




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