Diary book

Steph
2021-04-12 19:20:52 (UTC)

ed thoughts

So today I have been put on a constant feed , I feel so mad at myself for not managing the normal feed. I was told today I'm not owed on my 15 mins walk for a while or to group sessions I'm pretty devastated bout that as that was the only thing getting me through the day ,I feel so lost and alone , so far away from home , 360 miles away from home is such struggle , I'm struggling to except the fact that " I'm ill " but that's the only thing I can think about the moment how I just don't desereve the help and how I'm not ill enough to be hear , The staff have been really lovely with me , My anti sicotic meds have been stopped for a while and I'm struggling to deal without them , The thughts are just getting lowder and stronger , If anyone has any destractions that would be much apresheated . I feel fat I feel like this feed is making me put on a lot of weight and that is upsetting me , I just don't no how to feel anymore or what to think .




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