who_am_i

Just a teenager
2021-03-31 18:16:03 (UTC)

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I can't keep myself from crying.I feel so miserable.I've been dealing with acne for the past 4 years and I'm so tired.I'm still crying while writing this god.My skin reacts to every food I eat.I have zero fucking idea if it's just intolarence or allergy but I've used almost every topical treatment,been on antibiotics three times and nothing seemed to work.Besides cutting out some food groups.I've discovered that they caused my acne a year ago.For three months I stopped eating wheat,dairy,eggs,corn,rice,coffe,chocolate,any processed food and even fruits for a while.My acne completely cleared up and I started reintrudicing them.Besides fruits,I couldn't eat anything else on the list or I would have at least two cysts by the next morning.By this point,my already fucked up gut was dying,bloating after every meal,constipation,being severely underweight.I was 97 pounds it even hurts to remember.Of course I couldn't keep going and gave up.I started having major binge attacks and gained my weight back.Turns out my constipation was because of undereating.Since then,I'm still dealing with acne.I hate it so fucking much and I have no idea what to do.If I stop eating the foods I react to,then I would lose so much weight.Having a diet that's both sufficient in calories and doesn't include any 'bad' foods is not an option cause my family can't afford it.Everything is incredibly expensive here.Let alone the healthy ones,even buying the casual foods that every diet must consist of is a struggle.We can't visit any doctors cause of covid and even if we did,THEY DON'T TAKE ME SERIOUSLY.They think I'm just a paranoid teenager who doesn't know what she's talking about and pescribe me more pills.I'm so tired.I have no money.No idea what to do.Every meal is a struggle.I don't even know if acne is the only problem.If I keep eating the foods my body clearly hates,I may develop something serious.Why did i had to be this way?
The more I write the more I can't control my crying so I'm ending my entry here.If anyone else here is suffering from acne my heart is with you.I wish I could fix this shit but my face is still burning.




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