The Underground Woman

Out of Spite
2021-03-26 04:31:37 (UTC)

Big Emotions


Today's been an emotional day, it seems like. The week after a long break is always the weirdest, and I am excited for Friday to end already. I first noticed today's shenanigans during 1st period. I think I had an anxiety attack during my lesson. I couldn't think, and I could hardly talk. My mouth started to get dry after every silent second with the eyes of a dozen teenagers staring at me. I needed 5 minutes to compose myself, so I put the kids in a breakout room. When they were all settled, I closed my eyes in disappointment. The kids don't deserve me as a teacher, I thought again. I needed to finish the lesson, so I put together my thoughts and started demonstrating how to locate the main idea of a paragraph (topic author's opinion on that topic) and how to rate detail/idea organization on sample STAAR essays, essentially preparing them for the expository essay they have to write in a few weeks. I think, overall, it was an effective lesson. The kids were reading, discussing, sharing their analysis. Was it perfect? Not in the least, but it's okay. I need to remember that. Just try again tomorrow, right? Maybe it would help if I could get more than three to four hours of sleep a day. Tell my anxiety-ridden brain that.




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