This Is It - 2021
2021-03-19 00:00:00 (UTC)



I am sooo overwhelmed and stressed right now I hate it. I'm just so worried over my pets' health because all of them are acting up at once and one of my dogs suddenly got really bad and died within, like, 48 hours and now the others are acting up and I want them to be okay. I have so many assignments just all time I have Spanish to do I have like three or four days I have to do work for that class which doesn't seem like a lot but it is because the work always takes longer than I expect and I didn't have time after finishing my Spanish today to completely do my exam in a different class that I didn't remember was today and so I only got half the exam done. And I can get that grade up to a C which is all I need for passing but I'm going to be cutting it close which is just adding additional stress. I weighed my cat and he's lost two pounds which is almost a third of what he weighed before he got sick (9 pounds) and I don't know what to do because I don't know why he's sick but he's not keeping his food down and how am I supposed to care about classes that I'm going to forget everything from the minute I complete the final when my animals are not okay. And one of my dogs has taken to attacking my stuffed animals instead of any of her own toys and I know I'm an adult and stuffed animals are childish or whatever but I love them and now I have to be constantly vigilant and keep my door closed so my dog doesn't get in but it gives my cat no chances to try my room out again if he wants to and I just hate all of this.

I don't even really want to cry right now (though I certainly did earlier) I just want it all to stop and let me BREATHE