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2021-03-10 11:42:00 (UTC)

Heartfelt Thanks

Fellow Reader wrote....

Even though your hurting and blue
I will not let you give up on you
Love, trust, Respect is something we seek
And in todays world is harder to find
But with your loving nature
So pure and so kind
You will find that love that will bind
It may not today tomomorrow or next week
To find the person you seek
But patience is required my friend
And youll be the winner in the end !!

I appreciate the kind words. I do. I apologize that, I have no faith or trust or belief in any persons words right now.
To be lied to, so deeply, just to be vindictive and shatter a persons trust, faith, and heart, is something I just can’t comprehend. I never thought, such a person, was this person. It’s hard to wrap my mind around it.
I believed, there were people out there, like me, possible of giving true love, and affection, for the purpose of actually feeling those feelings. I had no clue, someone would use my pure heart and unconditional giving against me to hurt me. This, was a first.
So please, bear with me. I would rather go through the rape three years ago, than to feel what I feel now. Physical is easier to heal from than mental. This is the first time in my life, my heart was ever used against me to ultimately hurt me.

His words...and I quote....

I want to be happy in life I want everybody to be happy in life, if people are going to be childish, I’m going to let them reap that alone. I don’t want to be around people that try to hurt me by acting out. I’m an adult. And I don’t tolerate games. So......enjoy your week, I’m going to miss you both. And I’m sorry it came to this


Sadly, I never was childish. He never let me explain anything. He jumped to conclusions. He doesn’t tolerate games, yet, he played the head games. “I tell people what they want to hear”......never once, asking me or giving me the opportunity to speak, just ghosted me. Does that sound like an adult move?
It’s ok. It honestly is. I will heal the hurt in time. I will continue to be such a beautiful woman more and more. I am a person who continues to better myself, to survive every challenge. I just have never had a person play with my heart as such. To lie to me like he did.
Maybe, when I get the poster when it’s done, instead of burning it, I drop it off or have it sent to him, so he knows, I, am speaking the truth. I have never once lied to him. Always was there when he needed me and wanted me to be there. I dropped everything to be there when C broke his heart so to speak. Does that sound like a childish woman? I was struggling with a ton of stuff, just like he has in the past.....I was there for him.....I didn’t get the same but distance, ghosting, and called names.....that....hurts.

*sigh*

Doesn’t matter.
The damage is done.

I have an appointment starting in 45 minutes.
Will be back later.


๐Ÿ’‹Love, Pinky




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