Gentleman ♀

Thats Not Me

Ough,

I swear sometimes I wish I were dead. I could never actually do it but sometimes living isn't all that and a bag of chips like some people say. It's not that I want to die, it's that I wish I never lived. Anyways today looked in the mirror and I was confused. Howcome my reflection doesn't feel like me? When I look in the mirror I don't see myself, or even a familiar face. It feels like I made eye contact with a complete stranger. Maybe I'm overreacting about this but it's just an annoying thought that's constantly in the back of my head. Honestly, I just want to take my face off like it's some sort of mask but I couldn't imagine what would be underneath... Do you ever feel like whatever's going on in life is temporary? Like your on a horrible vacation to hell and sooner or later it will all end? But it never really does end, does it? I have no clue what's wrong with me but I feel pathetic. I mean I'm just a middle schooler shouldn't I be some carefree idiot with like 3 boyfriends I've never even hugged. But no I'm stuck here in my own head making my little sister buy skittles for me so that the cashier doesn't think I'm some stupid fat kid looking for more calories. Pfft, I guess this got dark fast. One second I'm introducing you to my friends and the next I'm talking about my stupid insecurities. I'm sorry to anyone who read this. I hope you have a better day than me TUT

~Gentleman