@perfectlyimperfect

want it all
2021-03-06 22:50:00 (UTC)

I always want

' Why did you like him so much?' A frequent question I am always being asked. And my answer always remains I don't know. Maybe there are multiple reasons. Maybe because I am attached to him with all my emotions. Because he was the first person who said me that he really loves my smile. Because when everyone was reminding me that I have to be strong, he was the only one who said me that it's okay to be weak and cry sometimes. Because no matter what everybody thinks about me, he never gave up on me. Because no matter how many big mistakes I made in our bond, he always forgives me. Nah! he isn't my boyfriend. He is just someone I always want to be with. It's been 3 years I have such deep feelings for him, but the opposite is never possible. And when now I am 1000 miles away from him and when I know I will never go back to that place, it hurts like hell.
I can't find anyone like him, not even close to him. In 10 years, maybe he won't even remember my name. I will be just a tiny puzzle of his youth, a forgotten piece, another forgotten snowflake that melted in his hands.
And when I will be old and wrinkled sitting in a rocking chair, outside looking at the stars on a summer night, I will remember every bit of him, I will remember you and your tender hands holding mine, the way you always gave me a hug whenever I was low and the way your eyes reflected those stars...




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