meelife

Living Without Lighting
2021-03-02 09:56:29 (UTC)

Day 4

So I should give a forewarning that today was my day off, so nothing really interesting happened. However, since I still haven't smoked I'm going to write an entry anyways.

Unfortunately, I've yet to meet my goal of waking up at 10am. I have a class tomorrow at nine however, so with my newfound sober energy I'm going to see if I can stay up throughout the day from that time, rather than go back to sleep and wake up at 1pm like I used to. You wouldn't believe how tired I used to be when I smoked. Even after ten hours of sleep, I'd literally DAYDREAM about snoozing throughout my day, only for that lethargic feeling to magically fade away at 12am when I'd get ready to smoke again. Not a great way to live.

In better news, I exercised for the first time in a while and I also found a subreddit dedicated for recovering pot fiends like me. It's called r/leaves, and it's pretty active and the entire community on there is really positive. It's a refreshing place to visit, given that most cannabis-related sites today are reassuringly advocative of the drug. I'm still feeling the cravings, especially at night, however I'm starting to feel my circadian rhythm come back which is good. I'm hoping that by tonight or within a couple of days I'll no longer need aid from a sleeping pill.

In the meantime, I'm doing what I can to get to sleep faster. I keep a book about archaeology by my bedside to read before I settle down, and although I don't understand everything it's still an interesting read. It's one of those more sophisticated books where the author expects you to know everything they're talking about. I'll catch up eventually...

Anyways I want to again thank those, who by the forces of cosmic chance, stumble upon my articles. Weed has been one of the most private struggles in my life and it's good to have a place to vent. Until next time.

P.S. For experimentation's sake here's an ascii cat.

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