Justwhatever

Sadnant
2021-03-01 23:29:06 (UTC)

In which I get horny over 🐷 cops

I went into central today, finally. It was fun. My housemate wanted to stay in and work on her bedroom, so I had the cab and the day to myself so long as first thing I did was pick up her meds for her.

That was a mild ordeal, but after a while I had plenty of kratom in my system (I knew buying enhanced would be a bad idea) so I was in good spirits.

At one point I was sitting on the pavement, and a cop walked past me saying "Got a cold bum?" I took a moment to process then "Yeah a bit." Moment. A bit quieter "Wanna help warm it up?" IDK if he heard me. Most cops are probably trained to not respond to people making lewd passing remarks like that. Felt good to say it though. Wish I'd said it louder, unapologetically.

I did get pretty horny over all the cops. I stand out more in the lack of crowds, but so do they. I first came upon a group getting lunch, and I felt anxious but also excited. I wasn't dressed as subtly as I am when I'm just running errands. (Well... Rare I'm ever totally within the realm of normie.) I was anxious about drawing attention to myself, and fantasising about asking them about their handcuffs. I walked around a bit then finally circled back and walked in the direction of the group but on the other side; one crossed over (maybe to check the van for something) and by then I'd worked myself up a bit.
I'm not 100% that w/e these are are orgasms but... They're some kind of climax of excitement. Kind of like people say a sneeze is 1 tenth of an orgasm, this is a fraction of an ejaculation/squirt.

So that happened a few times.

I should make an effort to go into central more. It's nice taking photos of parts of it looking so relatively empty. Probably helped that it was so cold. Although is it also a bank holiday?

Oh yeah. There were a couple other times I walk past cops and had a weird climax. Pretty sure at least a couple had an eye on me. God, I just want to be cuffed and cavity searched. Hearing a smug pig chuckle with my fluids all over their fingers. Of course a white male would be the most degrading; but, as I looked at all the photos on one of the many clones of that one scam dating site, I realised any type of cop would do, really. It's about the self-importance, the disregard, and the authority that's a little too real.

Probably hard to find a cop who just wants to fuck. They probably want someone they can control.

***

While I was in a small central park just watching the pigeons trying to mate (one male with white-tipped wings was very aggressive) a group of white boys walked past, and one at the back is like "So MYYY Halloween costume" and they both laughed.

(Calm down Henry Dennis Smithington it's barely March.) I took their need to comment as a compliment.

Later on while I was enjoying my food, a random man was standing around me repeating "Enjoy. Enjoy." Eventually I couldn't ignore him and looked at him. He said I should say thank you. I almost told him to fuck off, but I settled for giving him an incredulous look. Then filming him on my phone lol. Not the worst guy to pull that flavour of catcall bullshit... or maybe I just felt more calm and prepared thanks to dex and kratom.

I walked away wondering about how it made me feel, besides the temporary loss of appetite and anxiety/anger. Did it make me feel gender dysphoric? I'm not sure. I do hate that it happens though. I wish men would not.


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