My Secret Submissions and thoughts
Not all Rainbows and unicorns (early days)
I wasn't going to share this tidbit but then I thought why not right. I mean he got mad at me plenty of times but this was the first time I truly felt fear around him.
“I don’t understand what's wrong with you..... you are acting funny" I rolled my eyes as he practically pushed me in the car and slammed the door. I looked up as he stepped in front of the car. Someone was talking to him. He looked toward me and I glared at him. He probably couldn’t see me it was dark in the car. The man he was with glanced my way too. He shook his head and waved toward the car the other guy had come from. Then he shook the one guys hand and walked to the drivers side to get in. When he got in he put music on and glanced at me. “Put your seat belt on” I looked out the window ignoring him. “Fine don’t, I don't care”. After that he was so quiet, I hated it when he was quiet. What did he mean ? what was he thinking?
He put the car in drive and sped out of driveway. “Why the fuck are your parents doing this to you?” he pulled my hair and it fell around my shoulders "You look like a high priced whore". He hit the steering wheel. “You have no idea how hard it was to watch you in there.” I flinched he had never really screamed at me before. He always walked away from me and spent some time with AJ. I reached out for him and he tightened his grip on the gear shaft. “Don’t touch me”. I pulled my hand away. “you acted like you didn’t know me”. I stayed quiet because I didn’t think he wanted me to talk either. Quite some time went by and he said “Like you didn’t even fucking know me.” I leaned toward the other side of the car and grabbed the door handle. I mean I could jump right? He noticed and hit the gas and the car started going faster.
“Do I mean so little to you?” it was whispered. I almost was unsure if I heard it. I looked at him and he stared straight ahead “Fine if this is how you want it, that is fine with me”. What did he mean by that? When the hell did this become him? He was acting like he caught me cheating or something. Then he looked at me and smirked “Are you scared of me Kitten?” I averted my eyes. "You should be".
This was a fear I never thought I would feel. Never in my life did I think I needed to be afraid of him. I start to think about all the ways he could really hurt me.
His hand brushed my thigh and I flinched away from him. “Say something” he put his hand back on the shifter. I mean what could I say. It wasn't anything new for me I had been doing stuff like that since I was 13. He had never seen that side of me before tho I guess seeing it was a shock. I was more real with him than the girl I was dressed up as. "I said what do you have to say for yourself, hanging on the men, laughing at shit that isn't even funny, Hell you let one of them kiss you" He sighed and ran his hand through his hair. "I thought reminding you who you belong to in the bathroom would be enough for me but it's not..... even close" He gripped the wheel so hard his knuckles turned white. “I’m sorry” I mumbled. He pulled into his driveway but stopped at the gate so fast I tumbled forward. “Get out” He was looking everywhere but at me.
I looked at him “Here?” I stayed where I was. “yes, get the fuck out of my car”. I quickly opened the door and got out and I looked back at him. “Go home, I will be back I have to return to the party, don’t wait up for me.” I shut the door and he rolled down the window “A?” I looked back towards him “You are not to sleep in my bed tonight you aren’t allowed in it any longer, do I make myself clear?” he gave me a hard look and then rolled up the window and drove away. Not even waiting for my reply.