marielmia

Mariel is MIA
2021-02-22 08:46:53 (UTC)

Magnetism is nature.

It's a slow Monday, so I've been reflecting and day dreaming away. The weekend certainly wasn't what i was expecting. Tame for the most part. The progressive use of the mouth gag was tolerable for the most part. I asked him why this uncomfortable device was the centerpiece of our interaction together. He said i needed to understand that pattern, and ritual was important. While i was engaged in inserting the device, offering my face for his adjustment, i didn't notice how he guided me, with each round of insertion, wearing and removal. How i took the thing off the small table. How i put it in my mouth. Wearing it. Sopping the drool and then finally removing it, cleaning it and restoring it to the stand.. Each time, 5 to 15 minutes, then a longer rest, at his pleasure. I saw the transition. Literally, since he videoed it all. How took the device and mouthed it for him, in a random series of moves, evolving into a process, with positioning of not only my face, but of my entire body. And the final one, when he called it a day, meaning i had understood his plan and carried out my "mission". We watched the assembly of videos together. The from placement and wearing with minimal consideration of form and flow to a graceful, as he put it, acceptance of his wishes. The transition of me placing it and the realization that i should never have placed it at all. At some point, i understood he required me to position myself, offer the device and then my neck, in submission, to him. Intermittently, over 2 days, it took. He thought more practice would have been needed, but said he wasn't truly surprised. When he said "you're so willing," was that a compliment, or simply an observation?


And then, Sunday evening, hours after the training was complete, one final performance, as he called it. I was perfect in my form, completely still as he razored off the gray gown. My devotion to stillness as he ministered to me, was on display until he no longer required it. He made his dominance clear to me and i accepted. His ultimate plan was served. There was no form or grace after that. I knew it had to be that way at some point. But i understood why it took this long and what is and will be required of me. And when he was satisfied and released me, he cuddled me, bringing me full circle.


Magnetism is nature.




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