My feelings about sex are mixed.
I like the concept of it, I like speaking about it, I'm interested in knowing and learning about it, I'm okay with participating in it and I hate the way it leaves me feeling after it's done.
I adore how it brings pleasure to my beloved partner and I dislike that it gives me more anxiety other than anything else.
Sometimes it makes me feel disgusted with my body, other times it makes me feel good about myself. Sometimes it's enjoyable, sometimes it isn't. Sometimes I love it, sometimes I hate it.
Once the deed is done I'm always filled up with worry [sometimes regret even] until that time of the month arrives and I bleed from beneath.