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2021-02-20 01:41:22 (UTC)

Existentional Dread

This is my first entry, I told myself I would start some form of journaling to help me process my thoughts and my feeling etc.

Not sure if this is the best site, seeing as I'm already being bombarded with ads, but it's not too bad.

I guess what prompted me to start at such a late time was the anxiety I felt after watching a youtube video about how the continents will look in 250 million years. Just the large amount of time makes me, and probably every other human, feel highly insignificant. I completely understand that we give our own lives meanings, and we need to change our mindset to get the most out of it. But it doesn't make it any less terrifying. I am alive like I am a person, and to know that one day, I will just be gone, dead. No more thoughts, nothing. It's the nothingness that scares me because it's not comprehensible and to know that nothing matters is depressing, to say the least. Also, this is probably common, but why do we feel so alone, even though we have people around us, people we love and who love us back. They can be so close, but they will never be able to bridge that gap of isolation. My words have kind of left me, so I'm leaving it for today.