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2021-02-16 05:03:51 (UTC)

Today’s Prompt

Goooood fucking morning Ms Diary (not Vietnam) (Robin Williams)


Diary Prompt....
Who is someone you miss......

Well, Ms Diary......
I would have to say, there’s more than just one someone. I guess I can tweak (not twerk) this entry some......and say a list of people I miss......

I would start with my grandpa. I miss his good hearted nature. He was never mad. Never angry. Always laughed. Told silly nursery rhythms. Was a hard worker. Never doubted me. Comforted me. Delt with the bullshit of my grandma like it was Sunday church. Just a perfect man in my eyes.

Next would be my brother. He struggled so much in life just as I did.....but he had true faith, trust, admiration for me. He looked up to me. He always followed behind me. Watching, learning, trying to keep up. (I have to stop here, makes me cry)

IbCliffy would be next. Best friend from age 19 till 44. I walked away. It brought too much pain. Loving each other the way we did but he never had enough confidence to know my love was pure. I miss that best friend, we were so connected, he knew when to call without even me reaching out. We had this soul bound knowledge of each other. We just knew what the other was going through without talking to each other. He was un confident about his looks and never would accept I loved him no matter what.

Next would be CB. We talked almost 12 hours a day, everyday for over a year. Little did I know, he hid a secret, he was married. They slept in separate bedrooms in the same house. She worked nights, he worked days. So was easy to hide it from me.

Next, sadly, I miss Indio....the side I met and knew for 7 months of joys and overcoming challenges. I was, completely dedicated in that relationship. More than I wanted to be. But, believing what I wanted to hear, was let down, used, and broken in more ways than one. Law troubles has him hitting bottom, missing what he took for granted. Hope it hurts like hell in the pit of his soul.

I miss K. We were soulmates. I often question if I should have forgave him for the destruction he caused on me physically, emotionally, sexually because, he was fighting a disease he had no control over. However, once the law was involved, that control of the disease showed up.

I miss DewDrop. I fell hard and fast. I had those butterflies when I was with him.....till his true colors started to bleed through. And I walked away as protection. He started and still is stalking.

Sadly, I don’t miss anyone else, but one final person.....

He’s not exactly out of my life......but.....I miss things. I wish for things. I dream of things. I desire things. I’m blind to things. So much more than I want to say.....but since they are not “gone” I can’t put miss on here......

I guess there’s people I miss the opportunity to say something to.....but don’t miss them as a person in my life.

And with that prompt of the day......
I’m off to make coffee, still exhausted and tired. Might grab a nap in a few hours.

Much love...
Pinky 💋


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