MensaMan

Chronic Lymphocytic Leukemia diary.
2021-02-13 02:15:43 (UTC)

Day 673

Rested up after going to town yesterday. Otherwise, nada new.

Getting back to the sex frustrations I've mentioned before: Maybe I'm unique, but having a serious, potentially quickly deadly disease means that I do a lot of looking back on life, mine being mostly regrets. I regret never learning how to be attractive to women. To me, this is a groundbreaking admission. I've always told myself that I was better off without a string of sex partners, morally, ethically, physically, etc. But with mortality staring me in the face, I think I may have been wrong not trying to find lovers. It's too late now, and I never tried. It's too late now, when physical intimacy would be most helpful.

Morose, much?




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