LuLu

My love affair with narcissists
2021-02-09 01:37:52 (UTC)

In the dark

I have been so depressed and I think it is a mixture of everything. I was not happy in work so guess what?? I quit. I can only be in one prison at at time. I used the word prison because it is what it feels like. He wants me to conform to being a robot like he is. But also bend to his will about everything. Meaning he wants me to quit smoking marijuana but also, does not want me to take my prescription medications prescribed by my doctor??? I don't understand if he knows or at least desired to understand that I have an issue with depression and being bipolar. Why would you not want me to feel better? Just selfish. I know I cannot stay without a job because that just puts me in a position to be reliant on him and I don't want that either. So I have been looking for work from home positions. This day in age with all the abilities and technology we have there should be no reason I can't make a living working from home. I have always had a desire to do my own thing and possibly run my own business I have never found the time to figure out what that would be. And I know there are several self made wealthy business owners out there that found out how some way right? Well we don't know their process or the road they took to get there. I have heard stories about people living out of their cars to pursue their dreams. Why because if you work a 9-5 job you are basically only focused on that. Driving there, being stuck there, driving back home to barely make dinner to do it all over again. I don't even know how people have kids with 9-5 jobs how much time do you get to spend with your kids?




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