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Ad 2:
2021-02-06 17:52:15 (UTC)

Did she ??

Write that explict entry out of joy or to hurt me? After her last outburst im not sure.
Yes im happy shes in a new realtionship
But she must have known how a entry would effect me. I do love her but being so far away nothing waa ever going to happen. But a million to one shot is better then nine at all..
Am i over reacting? Most likey but it still stings. After feel better after a few entries im now depressed again ( i do suffer from depression) for the record.

Tears are falling as i write this as i dont know where to turn. No one to talk to..
I dont want to feel like a 3rd wheel ..
I look forward to when my time on earth ends. No more pain no more jealousy just long lasting sleep. Plz hurry grim reaper