AlwaysMarilynDean

To Be Honest With You
2021-02-05 07:03:31 (UTC)

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I met you five years ago on an app when I was looking for someone else I found you... I don't remember much but I know that we talked a lot... hopefully about amazing thing... you came back into my life 3 months ago during a crazy part when I was continually being told that someone was coming back from the past... I never thought it was you I didn't want it to be you... we started were we left off... sex... you told me that you craved me for five years... you couldn't forget me like I couldn't forget someone it's comforting to know that someone craved me the way I craved someone... I loved the way you talked to me and the way you would tell me dirty things...but I hated when you would take so long to reply I know that you told me that you wanted certain things and that your job(s) were more important... I understood that I respect it... but it got harder to wait and I felt like maybe there's always been someone else... maybe you're married I don't know clearly... Things between you and I escalated quickly we started talking about meeting up and finally sleeping with each other... but you wanted to see me first and we never have the right time so you came to my job... and got scratch tickets... my heart dropped when I saw you... I got butterflies in my stomach and between my thighs I won't lie. My first thought was I wanted you to hold me... I wanted you to touch me....to kiss me.... maybe even love me I was going to give you me if you wanted.... I had a hard time accepting that it was you I needed it to be someone else because I pictured my whole life with that person... with you I don't see my whole life it's more of a day to day vision... but now that I have written this far and have thought about everything... I really liked you and for whatever reason it didn't happen in the end you didn't want me even when I made the choice to come to you... you never said why or goodbye not even that you're sorry so I know that you won't be coming back.... I was sad for a while because I was going to jump and hope that you would be next to me when I land... it's okay because deep down I kind of knew that you were never really my person... you weren't going to change my life in the way that it needs to be changed I don't know what you want we never got that far.. hm but I hope you're happy in the end I hope you get what you want out of this crazy world!

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