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Ramblings & RL Stories
If I Could Turn Back Time
If I could go back in time, would I reverse my trauma?
Relieve my future self from nightmares and flashbacks?
Would I stop all that happened from happening so I would never have to relive it, because I never lived it at all?
If I could go back in time, would I take away my self-harm tools?
Relieve my future self from the scars?
Would I stop past-me from hurting myself so I would never have to explain "what happened to my arms"?
If I could go back in time, would I tell my carers how to help me?
Relieve my future self from the frustration and the anger?
Would I stop them doing everything all wrong so I could be calmer even when my mind with my heart was at war?
If I could go back in time, I wouldn't do anything at all.
Wouldn't change the way I acted, the way I spoke or what I thought.
Because however painful,
It is all a part of me.
So even if I could go back in time,
Because to rewrite my past
would be to rewrite myself.
And everything I've ever known.
And I wouldn't ever change it.
Not for you.
Not for anyone.
A little unsure about posting this one, because my thoughts about this topic change on a day-to-day basis, but I hope it can at least empower someone to accept their past.