Just the old time normal
I deal with a lot of emotional pain. sometimes the depression makes it hard to breath, I don't want to die because I want to live my future, but I don't want to live because it hurts day to day to deal with my present. most of 16 was quite nice, 17 was fine too at the start. but now im 18 years old and I'm seeing a lot of similarities as of when I was 15. I blame quarantine over anything else. I still feel like I'm going insane. I want to be the cute little girl everyone loves... but all I get are edgy thoughts. The things I think.. they aren't okay. I want them to stop. I only have two emotions Horny, and depressed. sometimes they are together.
I just want to be in the arms of my boyfriend.