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Ramblings & RL Stories
Bad headache (extended)
Extremely bad headache.
Ended up laying down around 230 thinking I would just rest a few minutes but ended up sleeping almost 4 hours
I needed to go into town
It’s too late now
It’s dark and no way I’m risking the drive
Woke up with a bad feeling
Almost started crying
No clue why
Something is bothering me but can’t seem to figure out what
My back is out of wack and I seriously need it cracked
I’m also ‘frustrated’ haven’t done anything for 2 days
My right shoulder has been killing me that past 2 days and is getting worse
My muscles in my shoulders are knotted up and when I lightly touch or apply pressure there is an extremely sharp pain in the temple area that moves to under my eyes
Something just doesn’t feel right
Sorry DD3 for missing ya call
I took the ringer onto silent when I laid down so I would get some rest
Upset my doctor still never called back
I really need to get in
I found a huge lump today
It scares the absolute shit out of me
I’m terrified it’s cancer again
I don’t want to go through it again
I know it will only push me to shut down everyone in my life
I won’t put anyone I love through that pain
I wonder how long I can hide it
I seriously need to push to get it checked
I noticed it a few weeks ago, was the size of a pea, today in the shower I felt it, it’s the size of a dime now.
Too scared to touch it right now to see if it’s painful because I can’t remember
*trys to sing in my mind to ignore the thoughts of it*
I couldn’t choose between Honey Bee by Blake Shelton or Hell of a Night by Dustin Lynch......or Shape of you by Ed Sheerhan, so chose Ed Sheerhan as the ring tone.....till something better hits. I had Hell of a Night, but just wasn’t feeling it.
But, going to grab 4 ibprophin and see if Sheldon will step on my back.
Too scared to release some ‘frustration’ because of that lump. It does have a bit of a burning feeling there right now.
*feel like I’m going to puke*
Just the thought of chemotherapy all over again, makes me sink to a bad place. I’ve got to either ignore it or push the doctor and say it’s an emergency.
*sighs with internal tears*
Ok switched it to Wanted by Hunter Hayes
And yes, it hurts when I touch it
Going to make some chicken broccoli noodles even tho I’m not hungry