This Is It - 2021
2021-01-24 00:00:00 (UTC)

One Day More


- Oh NO I just realized I typed my entry up and never actually clicked the save button (This was on laptop and I've been writing on my phone) What a mess. I keep coming back to chaining myself in place until I'm done... It's only been a few weeks! -

Today's my last day of being Just Twenty. Last year my birthday felt so momentous and this year feels like it may be even more so? 21 feels like Real Adult time. The first birthday gift I got (kind of surprised I got any real gifts instead of only cash) included rum and I'm now having to come to terms with the fact that I have, in fact, reached the age of legally being able to drink and whatnot. At this age, my mom was about six months pregnant with me! Was she more mature/adult-like at this stage than I feel, or was she just as lost - even while walking down the aisle and beginning parenthood?

Are there adults that actually feel like adults? Like they've properly gone through all the life experiences and years required to be Grown Up and they are at least kind of aware of their place in the world? I certainly don't. I'm not sure that's a real thing -.-