alex53201

Black Chick in Milwaukee
2021-01-05 23:32:43 (UTC)

Coming out of the darkness

Ok, here I am.

finally motivated myself to get out of my bed. 2020 kicked my chunky black butt. Had a fall out with my family, moved to a new place that I basically settled for, lost my job, my buddy lost her Mom, etc....
after the funeral on dec 4, 2020... i came back to my place and went to bed. well... i finally crawled out of it today, got cleaned up, put on clothes and went to a job interview. not gonna lie... the number one complaint i have about jobhunting is the recruiters.... everybody wants to talk to you, have a video conference, etc and they have NO job to present you for..just building their database of applicants... yes, i find that to be a waste of time... also, how in the world can a recruiter be helping a company in WI look for someone and the recruiter is in FL???? really???

I have decided to start an online journal to record all my thoughts. i guess you can say this will be my blog on the various thoughts and such that go through my mind. or even a set of essays since i just dont have the patience to write an autobiography. also, after spending ALOT of time and money in therapy... this is just plain cheaper... also, if people decide to follow this journal... perhaps i will find out that i am not the only one on this planet with the thoughts that run through my mind. most of them i have tried to share with my close buddies.. but, that went over like a lead balloon. sometimes, you just need to vent.... talk or ramble your thoughts without someone picking them apart.... and no judgement if possible. also, my life experiences are unique.... nobody else in my immediate circle have the exact same or even close experiences.... so, they cant understand. and trust me, i came to terms a really long time ago that i would never be understood.... i also know i will most likely never be accepted either.... but, i just need to have some sort of release.

so, my personal goal is to post an entry and stay on ONE subject for each entry. maybe looking back at the various entries or sharing them with the cosmos... it will help me feel less trapped....




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