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2020-12-31 05:40:56 (UTC)

Cold feet?

i told Master i would be happy to be with Vicky's Sir for an hour, as He was with vicky, and that i'd be happy for him to do what he wanted, so long as he kept away from my bottom. Then, a couple of minutes later, i had a panic, and said i'd changed my mind, and could we talk more about it when we next meet?

Master wrote back saying we could talk more, but meanwhile, He hadn't given Lee a direct response, and said that He wasn't sure about telling him to keep away from my bottom, entirely. He said He had shown vicky my hook! He never told me *that* bit. 😕
So now He must feel like He has to offer me that way to Lee... no cock near my pussy, or bottom, and no semen, but he's allowed to *play* with me anywhere he likes.

i quickly went into meltdown after that, and said i didn't think i wanted to see him anymore. In the end, though, i felt bad, because Master was pleased with my initial response, and He said He was proud of me.
So i went to bed after emailing Him one last time, saying i would leave it with Him, and that i would do anything He wanted me to.

i think He wants me to *want* to do it, but i just don't... not alone anyway... not for the first time. i'm not comfortable enough, or confident enough. 😕

i haven't heard from Master since, and i didn't sleep much last night. i lay awake, thinking about it all, and imagining what might happen if i see Lee alone. Believe me, my thoughts weren't good ones, but i just wonder if it's cold feet? Fear of the unknown? Maybe i might even *like* the guy, if i give him a chance?

Ok... enough thinking about this now. It's Master's choice, and whatever happens, is up to Him, and fate...




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