Ripple

Ripple’s Confessionals
2020-12-27 10:37:08 (UTC)

⋞Day 7 - Galena Tribe⋟

I really don't know where to start with this day... so much has happened and I'm kind of questioning everything so far. Doesn't mean I've given up or anything, don't you worry, I'm coming back from this stronger and smarter then I did going into this day, I need to rethink everything honestly and what I can do to recover from the hectic day... but enough procrastinating, I'll need to actually get into this confessional now. There is so much I need to write, as well as change at this point so it fits my thoughts right now as I write this. I'll try to add as much detail as possible to my various sections, I'm also going to do a little index in this section so if you don't want to read it all, you'll know what this days confessional holds so you can go and find the things you want to read XD. This confessional is big, so I understand if you don't actually read it all, I don't know why I write this much, but so much happened that I just wanted to add it all in lol.

To those that do read everything, hi. I spend way too long on these honestly... like a lot of time. Just typing away, word after word as I put all my thoughts and everything that has happened from my point of view into words on an online website. This is a new thing I'm doing, with like... a whole new format as well. I hope you have been enjoying? Enjoying seems like a weird word. I hope you find my confessionals interesting at least LOL.

Index:
⋞Immunity Challenge⋟
⋞Tribal Council⋟
⋞Trust Ranking⋟
⋞Social Standing⋟
⋞Alliances⋟
⋞Future Plans⋟
⋞Other⋟


⋞Immunity Challenge⋟

So obviously I already spoke of this last confessional, however I need to like... go over the actual results and such. This challenge was less RNG however it was still a bit RNG, I ordered my list in randomness so just random names in random places. If others had meaning in their lists then idk, I just liked the randomness. As for the results, it really was luck and chance. Luckiness if you were able to be off of someones list and chance if you and someone else said the same name. Of course the win was something I was unable to achieve in the end due to not having enough lives where I would be able to vote Drew. He had enough that he could vote me out and still last another round. So yeah. Missed the immunity by one vote but oh well, that honestly doesn't phase me.

I really am just waiting for an immunity challenge that actually involves the grit that the idol hunting involved, because fr, the idol hunting required more time and effort then these two first challenges XD. Both challenges in which you use words to associate to another or order them in a list. Aka I also just want to spend more time working on a challenge over a few minutes lol. But these challenges have been good. With Drew winning individual immunity, it makes sense or so it appeared to make sense for us to like... vote Jaremi out. We have a full majority of 6, Jaremi was also on the outs of that so it kind of seems the best option to take him out now whille we had the chance.


⋞Tribal Council⋟

Now this tribal council I have no clue where I should start. I could start with the fact that I was left out of the vote, the fact that there was so much I didn't know, the fact that an idol was played same goes with an extra vote, or even the fact that a plot was being created without me knowing. It might be best to start from the very start of this tribal council and just move into each thing gradually.

So we headed into tribal council and of course, very little was spoken to my ears. The only conversations that were being had were ones that I was forcing on others, meaning me having to initiate them and actually ask them what was happening. This wasn't even until I had woken up at 5:30am this morning. So my thoughts were "Oh it is Jaremi". Jaremi made the most sense in my eyes as I thought we had an alliance of 6 working with us on this vote, with Drew getting individual immunity, it made sense for the vote to be Jaremi. I had work at 6:30 so I could only talk to people for like 40 minutes before I had to leave. In this time, those I approached said that the vote was going to be Jaremi, and so I believed them, well I kind of had to with the fact that they were my alliance and all of them were saying that, so I voted Jaremi. I then proceeded to lock the vote in and head to work. So my mind is like "Jaremi will be going out". Nothing else is said to me, no one says anything up until the point where tribal council started.

Now apparently, yesterday at around 1:30pm my time, while I was working might I say so I couldn't even defend myself had I got the chance, a voice chat occurred including Jaremi, Drew, Harry, Patrick and Xavi. These five essentially created an entire situation where I told TBird Harry had an idol so I was then working with TBird. tBird had approached Jaremi earlier in that day saying I told him Harry had an idol. Jaremi than decided to go to Harry and tell him that. Now the issue here is, I didn't say anything to TBird. I never once mentioned to TBird that Harry had an idol. Yeah I knew he had an idol. but that didn't mean I said anything about it. So now these five guys are thinking that I'm siding with TBird because I "told him" Harry had an idol. How TBird knew, I don't know. It could have been a stab in the dark, could have been anything really, but the fact is that he was able to stir up the pot.

Why TBird decided to go for Harry is unbeknownst to me still, especially with the fact we were chill with a majority alliance within the actual tribe, there was no reason to make a move on Harry unless you wanted to force the tribe into a weird situation. So yeah, that in itself was strange. I would have remained with the majority alliance. We had a full 6 of us within the tribe, Drew won the individual immunity leaving Jaremi as the the first and most obvious vote to do. By going for Harry, TBird had to get a lot more people on board to get enough votes to even have a chance of voting him out. With the whole "I'm going to vote Harry", TBird had the extra vote, but still lacked in votes. Whether he was counting on Jaremi and Drew to vote with him, I'm not fully sure.

The tribal began the day before, they spoke about this plan around 2 hours after tribal began, I was both unaware and at work at this time. I woke up this morning at 5:30am, still having heard nothing. No one was speaking to me, so the only way I actually got the idea that people were voting Jaremi was when I legit had to force the conversation on people and specifically ask who they were voting. So I assumed by absolutely everyone telling me the vote was Jaremi that it was in fact Jaremi, and I followed along. I only had like under an hour to work out the vote, I submitted my vote and went off to work. I trusted the others that that was the vote, and yet off went TBird and I uncover a whole other plot. Harry's thought process was that he would tell me after the votes, like that would make a massive difference to my opinion on everything, it probably makes it worse honestly because now I am trying to figure out if he like... expected me to do something during that time if he had told me about the whole situation and inform TBird and such.

It's not even the fact that I was lied to by a few people, but I was lied to by THE WHOLE TRIBE. TBird and Geoff going for Harry and not saying anything which kind of makes sense as by this point, it is rathe obvious that Harry and I are together. However having Harry, Jaremi, Drew, Xavi and Patrick all saying nothing to me for a full day about the vote, that in itself is a big ass red alert. I get that Harry played his idol, it made sense as up until that point, TBird was gunning for Harry to take him and his idol out. So Harry used his idol and nulled the three votes, two of them being cast by TBird and the other by Geoff. I'm curious as to when TBird got his extra vote, unless it was from the hot coco cart, which means he and the other members of his trolly combined four punches to get that item.

So obviously Harry didn't trust me enough to tell me what was going on, which meant I had no chance to even explain myself. So when we headed into the actual votes, let's just say I was confused. Confusion turned into worry which turned into annoyance. Watching Harry get the first three votes made me extremely confused. Maybe one vote would have made sense at that point, or even two if Jaremi and Drew had voted together, but three??? To be told TBird and Geoff voted Harry, adding into account TBird's extra vote, I was thoroughly uncertain. And then seeing my vote come up and thinking "Okay Jaremi is going then ig" at this point and then seeing everyone else vote TBird, I was extremely worried that I was now on the outs. To put it lightly, it doesn't make my position feel that well, safe honestly. I don't know who to trust anymore, however, I'll keep my head up and keep going forward. Everyone cleared it up and honestly, it seems like it was a complete misunderstanding with how TBird managed to like... work out from what I said that Harry had the idol.

Even though it was cleared and it was all miscommunication, the voice chat after the tribal, keep in mind we were in the voice chat (Xavi, Harry, Patrick and I) while the tribal council was being held and the votes read, it was basically everyone trying to explain the situation to me while I became more and more uneasy with my supposed alliance.


⋞Trust Ranking⋟

Okay my trust ranking is all over the place right now after this whole tribal council and everything. Like so messed up I don't even know where to put everyone. I want to put them all in last place right now LOL. For different reasons and such, however everyone is pretty much on even ground in regards to my trust levels... I'll write reasons for why everyone is ranked at the same level in regards to my trust lol. This doesn't mean I trust them whole heartedly, but my level of trust doesn't vary between each individual and instead remains uneasy with all of them. The positions in regards to A, B, C and so forth don't mean anything, they are just there to exist.

1/6 - Everyone.

A) Harry - I'm placing Harry with everyone else after that mess of a tribal council. I don't exactly understand why he didn't come to me if he heard that I could possibly be gunning for him. So that means he doesn't trust me enough to think "Ripple wouldn't do this" despite being trolly of trust members. I get how he was feeling, paranoia and all that adding into the mix, however deciding to not even approach me about anything and instead leave me in the dark has me concerned. Of course we have cleared it up by now, but that doesn't change my current opinions on this entire situation. So much that he was also even agreeing that the vote was Jaremi when I spoke to him this morning, I just really don't know. I want to work with Harry for sure, Aussies and all, however this is something I can't leave out of any decisions I make. I would have hoped the fact we are trolly of trust members or at least allied from the very start would be enough indication that I actually wanted to work with Harry this season as far as we manage to get.

B) Xavi - Xavi and I were close, we spoke a lot and got along really well. He was of course one of the others that decided to leave me out on the whole situation at tribal council. I would it was reasonable, and he was second on my trust rankings since the very start of this season, but the new situation has put him with everyone else. I like Xavi, and I believe he only did what he did because of the situation and exactly how uh.... unnerving it was to be unsure if I was flipping on them. However a part of me is like "Well why didn't you ask me". If he was apart of my alliance, you would assume he would approach me if he trusted me enough. I really don't like.... we cleared this up in voice chat a bit ago. The issue is like... of course I still want to work with him however I am of course like, a bit uneasy now.

C) Patrick - Patrick is basically the exact same reasoning as Xavi. They are both in the same boat in regards to the situation in which has me on edge. I would say that I would trust both Patrick and Xavi to the same degree. While there isn't exactly anything that moves one of these guys over the other, I'm not as close to Patrick to Xavi. Again, I cleared things up in voice chat after the tribal council with everyone else, and he seemed sorry for keeping it hidden from me however he didn't want to risk it. All three of them felt sorry about that situation, but Patrick also wasn't as involved per say in this conversation where everything was laid on the table and explained. I believe I'll be able to get back my relationships with him, as with both Harry and Xavi, but I have reasons to be wary and think over everything.

D) Drew - Drew was pretty much same grounds as Jaremi. He had the individual immunity which saved him from this vote, and I doubt he would have actually been voted out without it as he wasn't as on the chopping block as Jaremi. I have some good conversations with Drew, more then I do with Jaremi, and to no surprise, he hid the whole situation from me along with everyone else. I'm honestly like, not shocked at all, and I don't know how this tribal council has affected my relationship with him. But the whole "keep this hidden from Ripple" is what is putting him down with everyone else. I didn't expect him to come to me, I really doubt he would have regardless as we don't have the most solid relationship and trust levels, but yeah... he was apart of it XD.

E) Jaremi - Jaremi was the one who brought up the whole idea of TBird going to him about me telling TBird Harry had an idol. He was the one who went to Harry and told him this as well, so I hold no grudge against that. I don't like, I understand why Jaremi did this. He was most likely on the chopping block and he had gotten some potential information that would throw someone else under the bus and allow him another safe day. The only reason why I don't trust Jaremi now is because I was the only one to end up voting Jaremi. He knows this, I cleared the entire situation up with him at the very end, however I am not sure exactly how much he trusts me anymore. Of course I want to make sure he does actually trust me, but idk. At this point, I doubt either of us actually "trust trust" each other anymore. Our current standing was already frail, this just topples it further into the harder side of potentially recovering. I know Harry and Jaremi have a good relationship, which makes it rather unfortunate for me lol.

F) Geoff - Okay so I really don't trust Geoff anymore. Originally, Geoff was actually on my pretty good list, he was apart of the 6 majority alliance and I felt like I could actually trust him. He was in a trolly of trust with TBird, so when TBird brought up the fact that Harry had the idol, so Geoff of course followed along with his trolly of trust fellow member with the vote. Why he did I don't know, as this just painted a target on his back as well. Had he voted Jaremi along with everyone else and left TBird to do this thing, that would have made more sense for him in the long run if he was to go up against us again in tribal council. I wouldn't say that what Geoff tried to do was dumb, as he was getting rid of an idol and working with TBird, but going against a majority alliance was just not the smartest move. This places him at the very bottom, as instead of just leaving me out of the Jaremi vote, he voted for another allied member of our tribe...


⋞Social Standing⋟

I feel my entire social standing has shifted now. I personally don't think like... I'm in a good position anymore. Before this tribal, I felt good in my particular situation, however the tribal has put a spin on everything. I would say I am confident where I am, yet being left out shows I am not exactly as trusted as I would like. I feel having everything cleared up, I would be around the middle area I guess. I want to trust the others in my alliance, but I don't know how much they trust me. Of course I feel we are back on even footing again, although slightly less sure on my end of things, however I'm not the worst off. Geoff taking a stab into our alliance has placed him at the bottom. If I was considered untrustworthy, I feel I wouldn't have even been told about the entire situation, and with how much clearer everything is, I reckon I should be relatively fine. My personal relationships with individuals is much more precarious however.


⋞Alliances⋟

The alliances are much more tricky now. One on ones with Harry, Patrick and Xavi are somewhat fine, a tiny bit wonky with how everything worked out but still fine. I reckon any trust that was broken can be mended given time if nothing else flips this game on its head. The issue with how I wasn't told anything would be an indication that they don't trust me fully, which is fair enough with the current twists already in place, and the supposed information that was sent out. The others are rather tricky to navigate, I can't say for sure where I am with everyone else.

Hedgemehog squad is made up of three of us. Harry, Xavi and I. I reckon that this is in the same position as Scoobert-doo, with basically everyone within both alliances having the same situation. The only massive difference is Greedy-6. This alliance is gone now. With Tbird and Geoff flipping on us, this basically just turns into Scoobert-doo 2.0. Neither of them are exactly within our alliance anymore, for obvious reasons such as the fact that we essentially voted out TBird.


⋞Future Plans⋟

My future plans at this stage is to stay alive, try not to be seen as a threat and honestly... I just want to at least get to 12 XD. That means I got at least two thirds of the way, that is good enough for me. I don't fully know how far I can possibly get, however I won't go down without a fight and I'm just going to work even harder to stay in the game. I don't want to lose Patrick, Harry and Xavi as my allies, and I don't think I will either, but I am unsure on what is going to happen further on with Jaremi and Drew.

Word has been going around that we feel a swap will occur soon. I don't know exactly when it will occur, but I feel it will. It doesn't make sense if it last even longer. We are already currently at 15 now as we have removed Dallas as first boot, and TBird from our tribe with Lam from the other. If we last even longer, then yeah. If the tribes are split into to, it makes sense if swap is at 14, otherwise there would be an odd number.


⋞Other⋟

What else can I add to this confessional. I've covered essentially everything already within this confessional, however this section is for a lot of other things that just don't fit in any of these categories. Lam got voted out in the Angoon tribal council, which doesn't surprise me as David was saying a few days ago last time we were in the trolly's that Lam wasn't as social with everyone as others. I don't know what is going on with Angoon, mainly as well... I'm not apart of the tribe and I don't know anyone apart from David within it. This means I don't know the trolly's, the different alliances or anything else. David also hasn't given as much information as well to help me think this over.

And as for the confessional question about snow... I've never actually seen snow. Firstly I live in Australia, it's hot. We don't get snow, maybe in some places across Australia, but not where I live. So I've never actually seen snow in real life. I assume my opinion on snow would differ if I actually saw it, however I like snow from however well I can say I like it. I just wanna make a snowball honestly, that's all I want to do with the snow XD.

I feel today was so weird. I probably should have expected something to be occurring with the fact that everyone was so quiet, but I also couldn't exactly investigate it further due to the fact I also then had work and had to disappear. Anyways, this is the end of this confessional. Not sure how much I wrote, as I have just been continuing to write whenever I get the chance lol.




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