La Flaca

Not so marry.

Today for the first time in my entire life I felt a sadness in my heart I hadn't expirience before a combinations of emotions flooded my heart. Maybe because I am missing my family so much. Or because a part of me knows life will only began to make these times longer and longer before seeing or reaching out to eachother. And that's ok I feel stuck in a never ending cicle in my marriage and I don't know how to overcome this stage we are in. I guess a part of me knows what am doing wrong and I honestly don't know how to feel about this. However I am willing to figure this out. I just need to find that one thing that had always been with me and died a while back when I realized if I don't hurry up and figure this out soon this will continue to repeat it self and time is to precious to stay here.
On another note I called my son and wished him a marry christmas and he had such a great time that it gave me a sense of happiness. I need to me ok for me, learn what makes me happy and move foward. Will see what this last week of the year brings.
I missed my dad a little extra today and long for the day I see him again. Marry Christmas everyone!