Are we even really friends? He’s one of my best friends, but what am I to him? He calls me useless, acts like he’s okay if I just disappear from his life. So what am I to him? He doesn’t care if I play with him. He doesn’t care if I text him. He makes me so sad. He makes me cry. I don’t know what I am to him. Would he do all of this if I were his friend? It hurts and he never stops. I have talked to someone about it before and they thought I should just stop talking to him. I don’t want to stop talking to him though. He used to be such a nice and great person to me. Is it me? Did I do something wrong? I probably did. That’s probably why he isn’t nice to me anymore. I hate myself. I always ruin everything. That’s why I had a dream that everyone hated me and no one wants to be near me. I want to die. I hate feeling lonely. I hate feeling hated. I just want to make people happy. I just want to be loved by my friends. I’m tired of it.