nerd™

the anger games
2020-12-10 21:23:31 (UTC)

day 1389. evermore eve

another Taylor swift album at midnight? 3 albums in the span of 15 months? what is this
i haven't been able to function since the announcement a few hours ago. there's still like 9 and a half hours to go im not sure what to do with myself in the meantime.
i have so much work to do but i just can't calm down. it's ridiculous. when i saw the Instagram posts i ran to Tass's room half screaming. she was so startled she thought someone had died. i must've looked deranged.
I'll say it again, we don't get a Taylor swift album every day and im just so happy to be able to experience listening to her music for the first time AGAIN this year. i dont know how many more I'll get to hear before i find the courage to leave and i truly mourn that.
there's voices in my head saying "if something as trivial as music can make you this happy then are you really depressed at all or just looking for attention?" "you're experiencing joy while he's nothing but dust and bone in his grave" "this is the last time we hear her music for the first time" "are these fleeting flashes of happiness worth all the suffering?"
but the buzz in my blood is way louder. the voices are right, but I'll cry about it later.




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