ℍ𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕝𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕃𝕒𝕤𝕤 𝕕𝕒𝕪 𝕓𝕪 𝕕𝕒𝕪
Just call me Mr Screwup
No matter how i try to br a good friend i always screw it up. For the record im not a bad person far from it actually but tend to make messes of situations.. I have know 2 women in my life and fell hard for both the first was a HS beauty red hair pleasant smile the whoke works. The other i have have never met except through facebook . Now shes super beautiful. Stunning is more an adapt word.. We text. Daily or every other day. She alwsys used to send a good morning greeting on my phone. That made my day easier to deal with just knowing someone cared. Was amazing. Shes in another country. But $$ issues and covid make an attrmpt to
Meet up difficult but heres hoping someday .. Now these two women are different but yet have one thing in common. BPD. BORDERLINE PERSONSALITY DISORDER. its an awlful condition. When u read up on it like i did . The fIrst woman i will call DD was born with it. And the 2nd. I believe it came with lots of trama in het life ..a lot of it violent vile and disgusting yet dispite all of this had turnef out to be a quality person we all need in our lives..
What hapoened sith the first ine i will keep it short and simple we were going to move into a flat. The she got cold feet and then cooled . She has cut me out if her life 2x now which bothered me at first but nowirs likely better for my sanity it haooened ..Now my second friend thinks shes not being s good friend which is totally not true. Shes an amazing friend .. But she does one thing to herself that drives me nutz. .. I will keep this private but it scares me to death she might go to far. I lose a lot if sleep over her .. But no matter what i say it. Always seems to be taken the wrOng way and makes her think i dont want her around which is totally untrue.. Im not good at expressing things /thoughts etc etc. I just want her to know how important she is iN my life now and in the future . I hope she reads this and nows how important she is to me. I think im gettingthe silent treatmemt right now that has me worried i got it from the other woman on several occassions. I cant remember if that was part of BPD but i will take it it is .. Hun you are very important to me and my life i cant say it any more clearer then that. You know my number email text. Plz let me know your ok and that i do luv ya xx