the anger games.
day 1374. irrational decisions o'clock
i dont know why im not taking my meds. im so tired i feel like if i stand up im going to pass out. my heart is racing even tho im lying down. breathing feels like too much effort.
there's a tiny voice in the back of my head telling me that this wasn't just a stomach flu or whatever but it doesn't matter i guess.
i hate myself so much why am i like that.i really should at least take the stupid blood pressure pill.
i feel so weak. having to take this tiny disk to be able to stand up? i know it doesn't make much sense but i can't stop feeling that way.
its only 1am but i thimk im going to try to sleep.
i hope i dont wake up