Make that move.
I actually had a chance to be home this weekend. I was alone for some time and it made me think about a lot of things in life. I mean the way people treat each other, it's just so wrong. Life is so short and while you're holding a grudge or being angry anything could happen and then you might never get a chance to tell a person how you feel or make up with them. I mean I make it my mission to be on good terms with people I'm no longer close with. I have good and decent relationships with all of my exes, except the recent one...and for what? Yes he hurt me and I never got an apology or even a decent explanation but I've moved on and I don't know why but I really don't want to speak to him. I don't think I'm ready to be civil right now. He is just hurting so many people right now and it seems like he doesn't even care. I don't even know who he is anymore. I haven't spoken to my closest cousin in years, she probably has her reasons for cutting out a big chunk of the family and I don't understand it but I'm going to respect it. I stopped making an effort with her and maybe I should start again. Family is so important to me but my family couldn't be more apart. Complaining and being sad about these things won't change anything. If I want the changes I need to make them right? Easier said than done. To become a better person I must do better. To do better I must make a move.