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Bad place

Well
First off
I CANT GET TO MY MESSAGES!!!!!

This application ticks me off sometimes

Secondly
I severely self harmed last night

I sliced open my arm from the wrist to the elbow
Extremely painful
I couldn’t take anymore
I sat there praying
I tried to convince myself, I’m beautiful inside and out
But there’s another voice that kept reminding me of what a fuck up I am
What a failure I am
I had a plan
To just be gone
But it didn’t go as I planned
Again
Another failure to add to my list

This is an extremely bad time of year for me
The next month will be brutal

I get flooded with all the things in life from my childhood on

I do NOT need to be hospitalized
All they do is pop you full of pills
You can tell them what they want to hear
And in 48 hours, your back home

I know, my daughter needed help more than I do and that’s what they did

I seriously can’t take any more negative things said to me.
I will brb