Rape or not...
I’ll be honest... I created another diary just to put this one entry in there because I thought this might be to harsh for some people. People might think I’m joking but these are my feelings and I already worked so hard to take off so many masks, I don’t want to hide in another. Plus these are my feelings and I shouldn’t try to hide them if this is how I genuinely feel. But I will warn you, you are likely to be uncomfortable...
Rape or not, sometimes it’s nice being held... finally being touched, no longer neglected even if it’s only to last 5 minutes.
Nobody’s with me, i need someone to hold me
So desperate... am I insane?
I knew online dating wouldn’t help but I just got desperate and Zoe seemed so nice... they’re still with me but like it’s always been before.. it doesn’t feel like it. I feel like I’m alone, I feel lonely. Even if the attention was toxic it would be accepted. I’d probably react violently, but accepted...
Sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever be satisfied... if I’m given something that i want, will i stop asking? Or will I just beg for a new thing that I don’t have.
Somebody please... touch me