I don't even know
2020-11-05 14:34:20 (UTC)

I'm Screwed

Dear Diary,
I'm screwed. So just for context, I've been sending myself text messages like meanspo and thinspo. This was so I could try and eat less, maybe workout more. I only sent myself 2 messages so far and they were both meanspo. Today though, my mom went through them. She picked up my phone because there was a call, but she went through my messages instead. I'm so screwed. What if she tells someone?! I didn't want anybody to know! I'm freaking out so much right now. I don't know what to do or tell her. I can't tell if she's upset or not, but I hope and pray that she forgets about it and moves on. I told her they were old. She might believe me. She looks either sad or pissed. I can't tell. Right now, I just want her to forget all of it. I don't know what to do. I need help honestly. Jesus Christ. That's it for now. I might update later today.