I am really not ready for the future. Maybe I am a loser who will end up dying alone, but I don't want to move out of my mom's house. I am really happy having dinner and breakfast and spending time with her. Maybe it'll cost me a marriage or two, but...I am not ready to leave. My on/off girl wants me to move in with her but...I dunno I have not really left family except college and that was horrible. I know...I'm a loser. Night all.