marielmia

Mariel is MIA
2020-10-26 10:33:34 (UTC)

...with a side of Mariel

Yeah. That's kinda how i feel right now. The weekend totally made me feel like i was the side chick, even though there is no reason to think that. At least right now. Clearly, i am playing second fiddle to Lunchie's job. But he is a professional and he is doing what a pro does. At least right now, i'm giving him the benefit of the doubt.

He asked me to come over at 10 on Saturday. PM, not AM. After work was done for the night. Prepping for some big legal hearing or some such. I was thinking of just passing on the invite, imagining myself telling him i'd rather wait until we could both give each other full attention. But insecurity got the best of me and i went, thinking I'd give him something on the positive to remember me. We had a little snack when i got there and made small talk until SNL came on. We watched until the new part was done and then he did those things guys do to maker your idea to turn off the TV and go to the bedroom. He did look a little on hte stressed side, which made me lean to work, not another girl somewhere, so i figured my A game might have to come out. Or maybe just A-. Figured to leave him something to think about. i also left he gummies in my purse. Didn't want to confuse the issues and i wanted to control at least myself, if not the sitch.

TBH, after our second night together, he isn't showing himself to be the stallion he probs thinks he is. It wasn't love making, nor was it frantic fucking. I'd have preferred either, but it was somewhere in the middle. Pleasant enough, but i couldn't tell if he had a connection. And of course, that had its effect on my connection to him. Around 1 AM, he told me he knew it was late so if i wanted, i should stay over. Now that was downright odd. I mean, why did he thijk i had any intention of not staying over. I just had his dick inside me, offering him my personal hospitality so he should ven entertain the thought of me driving home at 1 AM?

In my mind, i envisioned waking him up to a super stellar Sunday morning Glcuk Gluck but that thought got lost in my brain. He woke up around 8 and went to the other room, leaving me to languish on my own. I came out an hour later, to see him at his desk, making notes fo rhis case. At least it isn't another girl. That was my spin here. But still, disappointment. Have i found another man like Brian? Low drive or maybe gay? I'm beginning to doubt my own intuition on men these days. He saw me and made omelets for breakfast, shooing me at 11 as he said he wanted to finish up work and go to bed early. He didn't say alone, but then again, i didn't have to read tea leaves.

So, maybe this is salvageable. That's a not so good word when i think of it. We chatted this morning, long enough to get the gist there would be no lunch todfay. Sad. First non-rainy day in a week. Good thing i brought lunch.
XOXO, mariel




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