šŸƒAmanda22Janeā¤

Ghost Writer
2020-10-20 02:34:42 (UTC)

It's Raining Again.

Rain and grey skies yesterday and rain/grey skies today being Tuesday.
I need to start my floor exercises today. This is new. Haven't done any for years. This is not going to be easy but I need to start because today is the day. My body needs a massive change and workouts are good for bodies to get well and stay strong. The more I exercise, the less I want to smoke. So a good thing is being phased back in and an old, not~so~useful thing is being phased out. This is a more loving way to seeing what it true for myself right now. I'm through with harsh toxic regimes that my heart mind and body can't handle. The arts of Asia and the Orient are so healing to the soul. Western thinking can be very aggressive and not very realistic. Let's not go there with religious shit.


It's 13:42 p.m. By nightfall I will have completed my first workout.


I'm not going to Countdown supermarket for a few weeks. I hate the staff vibes in there. Hate it. I know that they want to search my bag because I'm brown~skinned and of course all brown~skinned and darker~skinned people steal and infect others of fairer skin with Covid19.
I'm really struggling here to not slam white people back right now. It's hard to find peace and safety among caucasians without feeling like they are itching to blame racially.
But fuck you anyway those of you who are caucasian and are racist. I'm getting so sick and tired of this. Just makes it hard to leave my house. The closer I have to get to others, the more afraid I become. I'm going to try a new strategy for tomorrow because I still need to fucken shop.




Ad: