Life of a High Schooler
Old Poems I Wrote
These are just some poems I wrote when I went through a really really toxic break up with a really toxic relationship. These poems are about I guy I had fallen in love with, who abused me verbally and would compare me to other girls, things they had that I didn’t. He’d say he hated my eyes, my hair, my body, even my personality. It was just a really bad relationship, and I wrote poems to help coop with it. I had honestly thought I was going to die because I couldn’t bear the heartbreak. But I’ve grown so much from it. I finally figured out I don’t need him to see color in life, all I need is myself. I figured out I don’t someone to make me happy, it’s me who makes me happy, people just make me happier.
Summer Fling -
Why must I miss you? Why do I love you so?
There’s an empty hole in my heart when we’re apart
Do you miss me like I miss you?
Did you really love me, like you said you did?
Can I trust the words you say?
I’m scared that you’ll leave forever.
Are you really here to stay? My life is gray without you,
Can I have the color you bring to my world?
You flipped my life over. Why?
Why did you have to do this to me?
You come and then you leave over and over and over
Why do you play me like this? But why do I let you?
Why do I let you break me? Over and over and over.
I miss you, I love you. What else can I say?
Everything reminds me of you. The sky's the color of your eyes,
I see your face in other peoples faces.
You never leave my train of thought.
Do I regret it? No, never. I would do it over again,
I wish I could see you now. Kiss you again
Feel the sparks you give me when we touch
Cuddle under the stars on your truck bed
Do all the things we’ve always wanted to do
But we can’t, probably never again.
It was the last time, it was the end.
I’m never going to be able to see you again.
It breaks me to hear that but it’s true.
I’m sorry but this summer was the last.
It’s never going to happen again. It was our summer fling.
It was a one time deal, at least that’s what it’s supposed to be.
So why do I want it to continue?
Remember that person you gave your all too?
Yea he’s with someone new.
You were just a game, a toy.
He never cared, he used you.
He left you, he broke you.
No matter how much you give,
he’ll never give back half as much.
You’re nothing to him,
just another broken hearted girl.
It was like a one way street,
only going forward and never back.
He used you like a cigarette.
He had you when he was bored,
then stepped on you, to put you out.
He has never given you a second thought,
while he’s all you think about.
It was all lies, not one truth.
He’s a liar, a player, a user.
He just wanted to play a game,
a game he knew how to win.
And you let him win…
Why? Because you love him.
And you know all of this,
but you still love him the same.
So you stay and let him use you,
you stay till you have nothing left anymore.
You don’t know how to leave him,
because, well, he’s everything to you.
Hey, how’s it going?
Remember the nights we called for hours?
How I would catch you staring?
Those memories aren’t as vivid as they once were.
You’re not my every thought that comes to my head.
But I still miss you, and I still love you.
But I’m getting over you,
at least that’s what I’m hoping for.
Are you still suffering?
I hope you aren’t, I hope you’re happy without me.
I don’t want you to feel hopeless and broken.
No one deserves that kind of pain.
I still wish I could hate you, but I can’t.
I’m never going to really stop loving you.
A song can come on and I’ll remember that summer.
I’ll remember it as the summer that I lived.
I loved and I lost you.
I could never stop loving you,
You were the best thing that happened to me,
But sometimes we have to let things go.
I just wanted you to know that
You’ll always have me to love you unconditionally.
You will always have a special place in my heart.