Esmeralda_Bramble

Like a Moth to a Flame
2020-09-29 21:53:46 (UTC)

Goals

No, it's not the football goals, but more like what do I want to do with my life? Honestly, I'm asking that cause I don't know what I want out of life. How do I see myself 5- or 10- years from now? I've been mulling about this for a while now, it pushed me to set smaller goals like being healthy, learning new skills, etc. But the bigger picture, I don't know. I do not aspire to be a director or vice president of a company. I just want more money! hahaha... no seriously, I just want to get paid heftily and not take up too many responsibility. I have no kids to raise or send to college.

Only thing I can think of right now is I would like to save up for my retirement so I can pay a nursing home when I can't be independent anymore, or be healthy, pain free, and avoid chronic conditions so I can be independent for a long time. By this I can shop for my own groceries, I can take public transportation without falling, can walk to the shops or doctor's office, do everyday things on my own without anyone's help. I would like to continue to keep my mind sharp so I can still be alert and not be too forgetful when I come of age.

I know these aspirations are sufficient. But somehow, I feel empty. I feel that by setting goals I could add meaning to my life. There's always something to look forward to when I wake up in the morning. Maybe if I engage in specific and planned activities that will keep my mind occupied and not overthink.

Do I really need life goals? Do I really want to know where I would be 5- or 10- years from now? Is it really "settling" to live a simple life and be content with whatever I have at the moment? If I'm being honest, I'd answer "No" in a heartbeat to all these questions. Maybe, at this point, I'm okay with my mini goals. They're still aiming towards a better quality of life.




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