Watasumi Kasai

Complaining about shit
2020-09-28 23:14:56 (UTC)

Goodbye , im sorry. I love me more.

I finally did it. I cut all communication with my ex. I used this message as my last.

"I'm always worried about how im seen. I worry about how you think of me and i worry about just everything in general. I stay thinking that i might sound like one of tbose r/nice girls.

But i think i deserve to be angry when im feeling neglected and dismissed. I refuse and reject all of the reasons you've given me for why did what you did. You're done absolutely nothing to earn my forgiveness and i hate that ive even continued to stick with you. Not only is saying "i don't want to say yes and it chnage to a no, and i don't want to say no and it chmage to a yes" to me asking if you still like me, some selfish shit, you say that in an attempt to keep me around. I dated you with all the seriousness i could muster you selfish prick. You cheated on me with some person you knew for a week...because they said they wanted to "be with you forever", you worrds. I damn near begged you to talk to me about what was going on in your head, and you have the fucking audacity to sympathize with some one in your discord server who got "distracted" like you did. Lol fuck you, its called cheating.

The reason you say that a relationship will "stress" you out, is because you don't want to have to actively care about someone elses feelings. Yet you'll keep making frivolous friendships with people who don't expect anything from you. You'll drop anyone who doesn't let you be ypur spoiled, pathetic and selfish self. You don't want to grow up, and I'm tired of you. You want to know why Star doesn't talk to you? It's because he doesn't like you. That's it, just that. He just doesn't like you. You stopped being a person he wanted in his life a long time ago, but he was too scared to lose more friends. He made new ones and realized he doesn't ypu or ypur god awful unwillingness to grow the fuck and chnage. You blame all this bull shit on your mother, when NEWS FLASH you're 25. You don't need her permission to do shit and haven't needed her permission since you became 18.

Did you think i was going to stay around while you leave me on the back burner? There isn't shit to figure out.

I should've ended this a while ago, but I've been holding on from a pathetic and lonely place. You checked out a long time ago and I'm just staying in place for no reason. You've rejected me so much, my help, my love, all of it, and all of me. This is my final message to you, i pray that all goes well with whatever you do, good luck in your future endeavors."

I think i was too harsh. I'd be lying if i said i didn't regret this. But i had no choice. I love me, more than i love him and I'm sick of always getting scraps. I want love. I want the person that i love, to love me back. To truly want to be with me. My ex only wanted to be friends and i thought that i could do. I made it all the way through this year, and it finally just clicked. He will never love me and i am pathetic for holding on to him.




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