marielmia

Mariel is MIA
2020-09-27 12:12:55 (UTC)

Mixed nuts. Choices loom.

Have a brief moment for an entry. M is out picking up dinner. So clandestine!!

M agreed that going to Lunchtime's place for dinner Saturday was fine, as long as i was sure he played by the rules of quarantine and that i would tell him everything that went on. i thought this was an intrusion, but to keep peace, i agreed. And Friday, it was a bit different between us. M was more of a soft lover than a dominant, even letting me use my Lelo, encouraging me to "fall off the edge" as he calls it. i'm getting so much better with my O, even in front of him. i'm thinking he's a touch on the jealous side. No matter. i decided i was going Saturday and i still was.

Saturday was rainy. We stayed in, did some house repairs with M. He likes that stuff and i like the non-sexual nature of things that bring us together. It didn't hit me until it was time for me to get ready, that i was having different thoughts about my evening to come. It wasn't that i had second thoughts on going. No, it was, was i hurting M by going? i pushed the thought out of my head. i have to do shit for me at some point and this was the point.

Me walked in on me as i got out of the shower, his erection leading the way. i looked at him and just said "is that what you want?" He got the message and retreated, saying he just wanted to use the shower when i was done. He saved face and i felt relieved. While in my mind, nothing sexual was going to happen later on, he didn't know what was going on in my head. I do think he wanted to claim me in some way before i left and make me think twice about having sex with Lunchtime. Men. He needn't have worried.

The date was nice. Basically, some wine, outdoor conversation and relaxation. A total recharge. I watched him master the grill, giving me his secrets in a most humorous way. i won't bore you all. i know it probs was boring to an outsider, but maybe my reaction is telling.

The wine flowed until about 10. i think if i gave the slightest acknowledgement of his occasional brush against me or allusion to more adult themes, my clothes would have been gone in a second. But i made a promise and was true. And if things are going to progress, it's more adult of me to be restrained. I closed the door to more alcohol, which was not lost on Lunchie. The door was closed on him too. But just for tonight. i may want this more than i thought at the time.

i drove back to Palm Beach, projecting on my future along the way. i was in a almost giddy state when i unlocked the door.

The note said remove your clothes and fold them in a pile by the bathroom door. Your leash is next to Rottie's. Prepare yourself to my tastes and await me in the playroom, in position. Remain in your position until i arrive. i love you. M

He made me wait. He made me see myself in a way i didn't all night. He knows me. He knows my mind. And now, he knows my body. Fully and completely.




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