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Ghost Writer
2020-09-21 10:48:55 (UTC)

Oh Wow. What A Day.

Okay life is just getting away with me now and I don't know what to do. I'm just so busy and everything is valuable and there's no where NEAR enough minutes or hours in each day.

About this time last year I could barely move to do one thing in life over a 24-hour period and now this!

The difference is I had booze to function ; to help me live my sorry version of living. Then in mid~August, 2019, when I quit, I also quit functioning. The booze was gone and so was my "motivation". I won't write anymore. Still sorting shit out.

It's very different now. I love this and I hate it. Everyday things are still hard to do, sans booze. I'm doing them anyway and struggling sometimes.
There are huge improvements and there are not many in other ways.

My most important doing things today were walking, writing in my diaries and journals, recovery stuff and looking after my cats. Only four beautiful cats to feed today.
My two, and Dekkie's boyfriends. She's got a whole bunch of boyfriends. About four or five. Both my cats have their neighbourhood friends both cats AND humans. There's a few enemies too but let's not go there. Anyone touches my cats and they'll be minus a hand.

Springtime is lovely and warm during the day now. Winter was freezing cold. I'm really glad of the less freezing cold weather. The nights are still pretty cold.
Christmastime in New Zealand is Summertime. I know that's odd but that's how it is down under the rest of the world tucked away near the South Pole.

On my walk today I saw two cute birds which I'm not familiar with. Water wading birds. Quite small. About one foot tall with little stick legs. These birds had bright yellow beaks. Mostly white with thin black and yellow stripes in a ring around their necks. There were other distinguishing features but I forget as I didn't stop to study them. Next time. If I see them again.

It's 21:31 p.m. Monday night. I need a shower but sleep is more important. A really good day of living today. Parts of it were hard still.

Got so much to do.

Miss my grandchildren like crazy.
I love them very much. I miss them so much too.




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