Sometimes life is confusing. I don't understand why certain things happen. I have no idea if I'll be engaged this year or next year. I have no idea if I'll have a job tomorrow. I have no idea if this will be my last entry. A lot of things are unpredictable in life. I really don't want my birthday to come, cause it'll feel weird without my dad. I know I have great family and friends to celebrate with, but it will still be empty without him. I don't want anything for my birthday, just to celebrate. My birthday is like 3 weeks from tomorrow. I will be 34....night all.