Songbird System

Raven
2020-09-11 13:21:59 (UTC)

I Need Help

I don't know how much longer I can take this. My mind is breaking at the seams. Not to mention I got to constantly hold back me wanting to fucking die.

I just don't know. I don't want to see my grandma or Trigon ever again. I can't. I can't. I can't. I hate them. I hate them. I FUCKING HATE THEM. I just want them out of my lives. But that's too much to ask for, isn't it? Because I'm surrounded by goddamn idiots and I can't do anything about that because I'm a fucking useless dependent. Everything I do is fucking useless. Useless, useless, useless. I'm a fucking useless worthless piece of shit waste of space. I fucking hate myself. I want to die.

My rational part of my brain knows better but fuck all this stress is making me go fucking insane. I want to jump off a fucking building. I fucking hate everything. Fuck. Jesus Chirst. I just can't deal with this anymore. I've been dealing with it my whole life and I'm fucking sick of it. Sick of being fucking chained to this goddamn fucking mistake of a family! I fucking hate everything!

Please just leave me alone. I can't go one day without something horrible happening. God, I hate my life.




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