MmHungry

MutteringHungryAdult
2020-08-26 21:38:26 (UTC)

how to build me

I feel a bit better ...(。-_-。)

honey with and Kava root tea really helped ... I feel like I'm floating on a cloud . its not a high feeling .. but a high feeling .


I'm not going to beat myself up .. its the beginning of the semester and only the second week , I can fix this . I'm not a failure and I'm not disgusting to look at . I'm smart and I'm Hella funny . I'm good at making people smile and getting myself in wacky situations . I'm good at problem solving and caring for other beings . I will try not to be such a downer on myself . I don't need peoples validation ( yes .. yes I do , but beside the point I'm doing a self affirmation activity ) I only need myself and I need to stop fearing being judged for imperfections . No one in their right mind ( obvi not me) will think a ninety is a horrible grade .I did a good job and I deserve happiness and love .


I hope tomorrow will be a better day.

Update : my sex dreams have been altered into scary serial killer dreams how enjoyable both wake me up in sweat .

Quote :' Write that down , write that down " - my counselor who thinks I will become a famous poet one day .
Song : butterfly - repose ( every time I hear this, I cry , what I'd give to have someone with me when I'm sad or happy )
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JJpD9t7GVas




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