I don't even know
Not The Best Today
I've been feeling really tired today. Yesterday, I woke up pretty early and wanted to wake up early today too. But of course, that didn't happen. Today, I wanted to use a knife to cut. I chickened out though. I don't know why. Maybe it's because if I do, it would all be so real. Maybe I should start cutting somewhere else other than my wrists. It's too noticeable, especially in the summer and spring. I don't think I'm depressed. I don't feel anything most of the time, like I'm always zoned out for some reason. I have a headache and my eyes hurt. I just wanna forget everything and pause life or something. Thinking about the future today as well. Like what I'll be, what's gonna happen to me and all the people I know, just random things about the future. I should probably go now. Don't know when I'll write again.