Lullaby of Woe

Diary of the lost
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2020-08-23 02:40:56 (UTC)

Some friends are not worth keeping

I had lots of friends back in high school but I only have 2 that I talk to regularly and that I could consider my best friends. The one I will be talking about today is Oli (not his real name).

During college, he was always talking about wanting to join the military. He was very confusing because he hasn't finished college yet but he hasn't really done anything towards pursuing his goal, so I didn't know what to think of it. It could've been just a grand dream that he was only fantasizing about.

The one day out of the blue, we suddenly talked about Hitler. Or at least, he brought it up. I voiced my sentiments, about how much of a monster he was and that he was evil and all that stuff. And you know how he responded to it? He defended him. We were having a civil conversation, just two people sharing opinions, but I thought how much of an idiot he was. He said that Hitler was visionary and that he was a fantastic leader with plans for change. I asked him about the countless jewish life Hitler killed. He basically said that they were a necessary evil. How the fuck do you justify killing innocent people for the sake of your idea of a better future?

He made me sick but I thought it was just another one of his passing fancy. He does that a lot sometimes. He even joined the "illuminati" once and on another time, got someone pregnant but when I asked him about his kid, he said he doesn't have one and don't remember telling me at all. Don't really know which is true anymore so I just ignored it.

Then back at January when WW3 almost came to pass, we had a discussion again. As per usual, I voiced my sentiments, saying that the one's who will truly be suffering through it is the innocent citizens who had absolutely nothing to do with political squabbles. Him, being an army fanatic, couldn't wait to sign up for the military when the time came for the war. I was dumbfounded once again. I told him that we shouldn't wish for a war because we will surely suffer for it unnecessarily. I was thinking of all the men that will be killed, the women and children that will be raped, the people who will be tortured, their whole lives upturned for something they had no part in.

But all he could think about was the glory of fighting in a battlefield. I couldn't believe him. It was like talking to a stranger. It was like he almost wished for it to happen just so he could shoot someone dead like in a video game.

I couldn't stand it. I didn't argue with him since it's his opinion but I did slowly lose touch with him. I couldn't be friends with someone like that anymore.