Emily

Day In the Life of an American Teen
2020-08-21 16:50:03 (UTC)

lol

I get pretty tired of talking myself. I tell myself, "Today we're gonna work out."

And it asks why? Wtf you mean why? Maybe because you weigh like 5 million pounds, stupid.

I act cocky when it comes to school but if I fail I'll actually cut myself again. I can't fail. I can't stand the idea of not being the best. I just can't. I write myself cheat sheets but when I'm taking the actual test I don't even use them. I know the information. But just what if I don't. I just can't stand the idea of not being right. Like we had a quiz and I missed one question. I mean it was just to see where we were at and how much we already knew. It wasn't even a grade. I knew almost all of it but I got one wrong and I might kill myself. What is wrong is with me I'm actually retarded. How could I not know that.

Leo blocked me again. And hasn't even unblocked me. I accidentally started talking to a lot of guys. Then I blocked them all anyway so that doesn't matter. Accidentally lol.

My 16 year old cousin had her baby, and now my other cousin is pregnant too. She's 16 too I think. I want a baby. Not really. Like a temporary one? Lmao. I always wanted to be a foster parent. I already heard Nick trying to put her on our Medicaid so she could get everything she needs. I don't want to be selfish but like, I still need new glasses. And braces. And they said they were going to take me to the OB and get me birth control. And that still has yet to happen...I don't wanna be selfish but they just always forget. Literally for like the past 3 days they've just forgotten to feed me? Lmao. I'll come out of my room after school and apparently everybody else has eaten. Like, okay. I'll just figure something out I guess.

My mom's a moron and I'm constantly telling her how to do this online school stuff. I was helping her and she told Landon to go do his zoom video in the bathroom. I said, "That's kind of a weird place to do a zoom."

It was just a comment really but she flipped the fuck out. She started yelling at me. Tbh I kinda zoned out. I had some song stuck in my head and I sort of just started humming that. It was weird. Like I couldn't even hear her voice until she threw something at me. Totally just left this dimension for a second. She did not like that lol. I've noticed that's how I react to a lot of people yelling at me. If some bitch is yelling at me at work I'll just stare at them. I don't really hear them but I'll just apologize for whatever they're bitching about and move on.




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