Hidden Ruby

Ruby
2020-08-11 10:10:25 (UTC)

10

i hate this
all of this
nobody cars about that abusive transphobic beice of shit fulcru or any of those other tansphobs in that anti map community or the safety of the kids he's hurting they just want to support him or use me as an excuse to look or feelritious or something
they don't care about mpanick attacnks or that i just wanna kill myself because of them or anything they just wanve fun hurting people who society dems okay to urt under the guides of protecting children nomatter ow hard we plead to just be left alone
jate tjis i hate myself i ahte this world ate this life wh is this just okay
why don't the care i thec clam to protect children and want to protect them over anything or whatever the fuck they say they wanna do i judy vant i us cant keep ging honestly
illnever be ale to do anything because theylkk always win one way or another they;lkk tkeep firing themselves on me and my life saying they want to protect me and that I'm being groomed and i wanna sfeek safe agau and tgetre always i don't even remember what i way saying here honestly just wanna dienow I'm going to be losing everybody anyway I'm never gonna do anything ill never get revenge, even if they did they'd see him as a maryter it something, you know what the hell even is a martyer
some fuckin dumbass killed for some kinda belief or something, no, i just want people to stop being hurt, it was mat,it was me, it was sayo i think it was even bagel at somebit teu a; have some sort of compact and i jus t why why why why whydo htye defend him so much, nothing he does matter to them but anybody else could do the slightest fucking thing and the suddenly treat the likea sp,elomda ficlomg racit or transpobe or something i just nW
i hate this i just want to kill myself it sucks it all sucks people will fucking dance on me being fucking dead despite playing so hard like thy're like ahh protecting me or something kuke that i don't fycjing know they don't shut up about me they wont leave us alone i just want to kill myself ts all i want to do but I'm dating people like eternia and max and and rose who they think is a different girl named riss ut I'm taking about this 17 year old tibby rose and not riss, that's somebody else but they're gonna keep making assumptions and gluing and saying shit without reason and hurting me and people i care for and saying they're protecting me and hurting me when by this point i have n other reason to live than the people I'm dating
i cant go back to twitter and have a community i renjoy being in because they'll just keep hunting me, i cant write forth a shit and that's still not going to get me fucking anywherw, I'll never have a youtube channel I'm proud of and even if i did end up having one theyd just find me and take it away and hurt me all over again and bring back all the trama because its a fucking game for them and its funny and its fun and its and ejoyable and etnetaining and fucking wharever and ill never be able to do anything i have ever wanted to do because theyll just keep hunting me and hurting me and they've done it before so they'd just do it again and just
im starting to feel stressted my chest hurts and my heart hurts and its getting harde to breathe ad i een have a bit of a headache nad i feel tired and i havent even ebeen up since like 12 am and its 4 am rigt nown
i wont evenask for help anymore ive already made calls for help for someone to stop thisfucking phycopath i ca;l fulcrumand the rest of that anti map comunity and nobody cared to do anybothing nobody's ever cares about it me my stepfather and mothr were abusive my fathers probably fuckin treansphobic and everybdy else just straight up leaves e for hatever fucking reason and its always my fault, rose max and eternia always say it isnt my fault but i know thats bullshit its always my fuckin fault
i hate this all this year is constantly getting worse i ate this i want wto kill myself i hate all of this
dads porably gonna be pissed tat i drank his beer or alohol or whatever the fuck it is i mea by his oint its al i havebleft eeryone i care for is gonna e taken from e then ill really have nohing do ill just stick to this unti i die one way or another
hopefully ill be dead before ninth grade starts in a month orsomething idk




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